Wednesday, 27 May 2009

I can't.

In high school I made a mixtape of all the most depressing songs I could think of. I called it I CAN’T… The tape dissapeared. A few years later I made another one. It’s around here somewhere. I’m trying to remember what songs are on it- I haven’t listened to it in a while. The concept was a collection of songs to really emphasize my subterranean feeling until I couldn’t feel any worse and I got sick of hearing sad melodies. The mix included Sigur Ros, Squarepusher’s cover of Love Will Tear Us Apart, the Cedar Room by Doves, Radiohead’s High and Dry, a few others and this song from this one time I fell in love. It was the night before I was moving to Italy and he was going back to California and we knew we wouldn’t see each other for at least a year and he wanted to tattoo a drawing I did on his arm but instead we lay in bed, under a duvet, even though it was August in New York City, and listened to Boards of Canada…

Here are some things I do when I can’t find that mixtape:

+Spread (non-toxic) white school glue on my hands and peel it off after it’s dried. (Not recommended if you’re extremely hairy.)

+Take a walk. Cry.

+Take a hot bath.

+Forget myself with a movie. (example: Wet Hot American Summer.)

+Climb a tree.

+Draw on my arms.

+Write. Paint.

+Hang out with someone funny.


Tuesday, 12 May 2009


walking in the rain.
crying in the rain.
kissing in the rain.

Rain by Tones on Tail is an epic song.  (Someone should make a better video.)

Haiku (The taste...)
The taste
of rain
—Why kneel?

by J. Kerouac 

Monday, 4 May 2009

Tenderness and Restraint

photo credits: M.M., fortuny, fortuny, sabine lynn.

i thought of you.

Friday, 1 May 2009

Looking for a new place to live

photosource: culturemaker archive

So I'm moving out of my flat early summer. I'm looking for a place to live in East London (London Fields, Broadway Market, Shoreditch...)

Do you know anyone creative, quiet, and tidy who needs a flatmate? If so, please find me on facebook and send me a message. A few things I like in a flat: high ceilings, wood floors, old buildings, lots of light, 50s/60s furnishings, books and records...